The Past Year
Ok, so let me try to summarize the past year. Our third daughter was born November 6, 2018. I had really struggled with prenatal depression, but with the help of medication and an amazing support system, I was doing alright by the time she was born. We named her Brooke Lily, partly because we just loved the name, and partly because I wanted to speak peace and tranquility over her after having battled through my pregnancy. She is the most precious child. She is such a Mama's girl and as spoiled as a baby can be, but even at this young age, you can tell she has the sweetest spirit.
I haven't written about the other girls yet. Adalind Susan will be 3 in a week. (How is my baby so big???) She is silly, nurturing, and brilliant. Jordan Elaina is 20 months and wild. She is incredibly strong and daring (like, future Olympic gymnast strong and daring), hilarious, and playful. If they're awake, they're moving. They get along pretty well, but they are also strong-willed and often butt heads. I enjoy them immensely, but am also completely exhausted by them!
I am extremely protective of my children. Hardly anyone is allowed to babysit them. The thought of anything negative happening to them horrifies me. So thinking about the dangers we may face in South Africa is terrifying. BUT, I cannot let fear rule my life. Nick pointed this out at some point this year. He brought up all of the reasons for not going and said they were all based in fear. He is (as usual) right.
My rejection of our call to South Africa became, with more thought (and mental wellness), less of a rejection and more of a delay. For a while, I thought, "maybe we will retire to South Africa." Then, more recently, I thought, "maybe when Brooke is 8 or so." Now, I have this feeling that it will be sooner, but I honestly am not sure. Nick and I have spoken about it briefly, but we definitely need to discuss it more and pray about it and talk to Erik. Updates to follow!
I haven't written about the other girls yet. Adalind Susan will be 3 in a week. (How is my baby so big???) She is silly, nurturing, and brilliant. Jordan Elaina is 20 months and wild. She is incredibly strong and daring (like, future Olympic gymnast strong and daring), hilarious, and playful. If they're awake, they're moving. They get along pretty well, but they are also strong-willed and often butt heads. I enjoy them immensely, but am also completely exhausted by them!
I am extremely protective of my children. Hardly anyone is allowed to babysit them. The thought of anything negative happening to them horrifies me. So thinking about the dangers we may face in South Africa is terrifying. BUT, I cannot let fear rule my life. Nick pointed this out at some point this year. He brought up all of the reasons for not going and said they were all based in fear. He is (as usual) right.
My rejection of our call to South Africa became, with more thought (and mental wellness), less of a rejection and more of a delay. For a while, I thought, "maybe we will retire to South Africa." Then, more recently, I thought, "maybe when Brooke is 8 or so." Now, I have this feeling that it will be sooner, but I honestly am not sure. Nick and I have spoken about it briefly, but we definitely need to discuss it more and pray about it and talk to Erik. Updates to follow!
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